#11
You know it hurts and it’s a hard thing to be away from the one you love. I love him so much and I’ve never actually been with him. Is that crazy?
I think it’s kind of a better way to meet. He accepts me and loves me for my personality. I have the biggest fear and if he comes and meets me then he’s just going to be like ewe…..she’s a fat pig: / I want to be skinny, I want to so bad but like everything I try to do to lose weight nothing works. It’s a bigger hole that keeps digging itself. I WANT TO BE SKINNY! I’m crying out to be so bad. I can’t find the energy to do anything. I want to be one of those cute, sporty, fit girls. You know I’ve tried so hard and I just can’t do it. Every time I try, I just get beaten down every time. Do you know what it’s like to wake up every morning and look at yourself and feel discussed? I’m sick of it. I’ve tried so hard, so many different ways, and different things and I still can’t lose the weight. I just wish a miracle would come and save me.
I really need one.
(Source: escapethefate)
